hello

it's me

ugh

what a stupid week

bah

these dave updates have all been lame lately

dave down-dates, whatever

sorry folks

but not like

THAT sorry

cuz i mean let's face it

you're reading it

i'm living it

who's got it worse?

hahahaha

IN YR FACE young davers

let's see

what to talk about

ok

i think this was monday?

i was sitting on my couch in my room

just staring into space

feeling shit-tay

and as a like "oh POOR PITIFUL DAVE" joke

i thought to myself

"maybe next year will be better"

and i actually did feel some comfort in that

like, the chance that maybe in a year life will improve

that's SOMEthing

i've been thinking about the concept of "facts" lately

yeah

that's right

i've been thinking about the concept of "facts" lately

that's a true statement and yes i am that boring

in fact i wish i was more boring

and i've been thinking about the concept of "facts" lately

weird that i want myself to be more boring than that

but that's who i am i guess

anyways

my therapist gave me a workbook for dialectical emotion regulation

or something like that

i just remember dialectical

that's one of those words i could never define to someone but i feel like i "get"

ooh i wanna listen to the wake right now

ANYWAYS

facts

"facts"

"get"

i don't know if i can explain what i'm going for here

these are young thoughts

tiny hollow peas of ideas

too young to chew

god i am so much less articulate than i previously believed

i've been talking about certain things and MAN do my words miss the mark

where is this update even going???

jee-bus

i don't know

wrap it up dave

these people aren't paying for silence

facts

i've been listening to a lot of podcasts at work lately

one of them being scott free

the podcast of scott thompson

who was apparently in a school shooting!

that was a surprise to me

like some kid shot up his high school

crazy

they had a bit on one of them though where they were talking about fake facts

when you just make something up and pretend it's a fact

like did you know china produces over 90% of the world's tampons?

crazy huh

i don't know where this is going either

maybe i should end this one

it seems confusing

i think maybe i'm a little too...

"in my head"

for this today

all i feel like doing is writing right now though

i'll go to the bathroom, that might help

be right back

hm i don't know if that helped or not

bah

ok

i don't want to do this any more

for today

or just for now

new phone

same number

510 575 HISS

this has been a confusing dave update