Monday, May 2, 2011

hi, sorry

one last try

after i wrote the last one

i went for an "angry" walk

and i went to whole foods

and shopped "angrily"

and then on the "angry" walk home

i thought "angrily"

about how silly it was that right now

i'm eating cornbread

"angrily"

and drinking root beer

"angrily"

and i felt better

this has been a last ditch dave update
hello again

i guess i'm probably going to go with option 3 from earlier

it's been a weird day

on the way home from angel camp

i was driving and listening to new order

and was really really into it

even though as i continued listening to the bbc sessions i realized that a lot of the songs were kind of crappy

like "bizarre love triangle" was all over the place

anyways

i was into it at the time

and suddenly i just started yelling at people i'm upset with

i won't talk about what i said, it doesn't matter

it was all completely over the top anyways

afterwards i put on portishead and just scowled for the rest of the drive

that live at roseland album is really good by the way

for listening to and for scowling to

i don't know where any of it came from

today i saw someone carrying these tupperware dishes

and he gave me a kind of crooked look

and i thought about smacking the tupperware dishes out of his hands

i always think about stuff like that anyways

mostly for the humor in it

even though i guess it's not really funny

i do think everyone in the world always being upset at each other is kind of funny though

especially if everyone is really petty about it

but i mean isn't everyone upset with each other already?

maybe?

maybe not

i thought about driving and yelling though

(after tupperware dude gave me a stink eye)

and it made me think

"uh oh"

"i think i'm going to start doing these absurd things now"

"and not really have any control over it"

i talked to a friend i haven't talked to in awhile yesterday

and this friend is having a hard time

and we talked for awhile

and then on bart i decided i would text her a bunch

mostly with nonsense

like

"i don't think i like asians, does that make me racist?"

(that's a whole other dave update by the way)

because i was bored

and then she sent me a really angry text message telling me to stop

and she just texted me now

and it said:

"Dave! Why is it so hard for you to respect boundries?"

for the record i don't think it is

(hard for me to respect boundries)

but i guess it is

days like these are the reason why i feel like i should just stop talking

i do think it's a good idea but i just can't do it

god i'm gonna have to start inventing names for the dave update

because i keep on wanting to reference different people but without talking about them

ok from now on any time i say a name it's not really a name

i'm sure that i will stick with this

hm

i have a lot of stories to tell but i don't want to tell any of them

i think i want to move

i think the bay area doesn't like me

right now i'm looking for another part of more i than no to post

because i feel like i promised an actual update

but i don't want to talk at all

but i'll feel like a liar if i don't post something

ok

here's one

it makes no sense out of context

but yes

the ...........s and []s are part of it

............[i am tied to you like a dent in a spear].........................
............[i am tied to you like a scratch in a mirror].....................

the end

hm

i still don't feel done

i wonder if there's anything else i can post

here are some words

boredom heat and vision

glacial torries

kindling piss-ant

nyquil distance

blah i hate this dave update

this is the worst one yet

this has been the worst dave update yet
hi

no dave update today

i will write something tonight if my computer doesn't explode

here's a list of potential topics

1. a conversation from yesterday that reminded me why i love smoking

2. a list of things i hate about my current roommate

3. potpourri

this has not really been the dave update