hellooooo

it's me

i feel like i have a lot to talk about but not really?

i just found out that i have to pay to see the short film i was in

fifteen dollars

what a crock

i'm probably still gonna do it

even though i totally can't afford to spend $15 dollars on a movie right now

i mean i can but you know what i mean

fuck

fuck everything

i watched that show "american horror story" this weekend

it was good

i remember watching the daughter character kill herself and thinking

"man that looks so easy"

i remember when i was younger i tried to kill myself by taking an entire bottle of aspirin

which if you're thinking those regular sized bottles doesn't seem that extreme

but this was a costco sized bottle of aspirin

economy-sized

for economy-sized headaches

i took about half the bottle and threw up from the taste of it

i figured there would probably still be enough in my system

there obviously wasn't though

that was the worst fucking morning

i remember i stayed up stupid late

watching the moonlight come in through my blinds

this was always a point of conflict for me and my dad

i would always leave the miniblinds pointed down

because i loved watching the moonlight come through them and line my bed

i'd actually sleep on my bed backwards so i could sleep in the moonlight

backwards?

maybe upside-down

whatever

but my dad was super paranoid

and he'd always come in my room and switch the blinds so they were facing up

because "burglars will peer through the window and be able to see inside"

uh

yeah

they'll be able to see my bed

big fucking deal

my dad is wayyyyy too paranoid

he used to wake up at all hours of the night and do rounds

which fucking sucked when you weren't home

or when you were home really

anyways

it's funny now because they actually did get broken into

long after i moved out someone broke in and stole a bunch of stuff while my parents were on vacation or something

i bet my dad screwed up the blinds

and someone wearing striped clothing and a eye mask peeked through them

saw that there was a bed inside

and thought

"hey nice bed"

"i'm gonna break in"

anyways

i couldn't get to sleep for maybe obvious reasons

then i finally did

and then my mom woke me up all angry the next day

because i was late for swim team practice

ha ha ha

how white am i????

ha ha

it's cool

i live in homeless jack-off alley now

that gives me the street cred i've so desparately needed

ha ha

now i'm a great person

ha ha ha

people love me now

sigh

fuck everything

life sucks

i'm hungover i think

this has been a stupid dave update

sorry

this new batch of dave updates has been really shitty

i wish i could say that they'll get better but let's be honest

i really don't know

they will probably continue to suck

but what the fuck do you care

it's just some shit to read to you