ok

i just wrote one of these but i have nothing to do at work until our computers get back up

i don't understand what i've been doing wrong

but i can't get happy about anything right now

i had practice last night and i didn't care

oh also i had practice yesterday but i didn't care

last night we watched youtube videos of big band performances

and then i saw this cool video of some group "poeme electronique"

which i guess i'll listen to now

because what else am i going to do

i don't know what to do

young davers

i don't believe that i'm capable of anything

i mean

the only reason i have a job is because we're absurdly understaffed

and my boss knows it'll be more of a pain to hire one or maybe two people to replace me

plus he'll have to pay unemployment

but i can't do this job at all any more, can't handle it

no one here really gives a shit about me anyways

i've spent like 3 or 4 years with these people and i think that's long enough for all of them to have "figured me out" ha ha

ha ha ha ha

that's where most people make friends you know

i read that somewhere

so it's probably true

why am i fucking writing this right now?

fuck this fuck this

sorry young davers

this has been an unnecessary and worthless bonus dave update

hi there

i feel miserable

BIG FUCKING SURPRISE

who even cares

hey!

i have an idea!

why don't i fucking write about it?

that'll help me "sort it out"

you know, in my head

and then i'll feel a little better

plus by "puttin it out there"

the internet will let all my friends know that i'm having trouble right now

and then they'll get in touch

because they care

this is gonna be EASY

and i will totally feel like life is worth living after this

because people are kind to me

here in san francisco

god fucking damnit

ok

fuck this

this has been another fucking dave update and there will be another one and another one and another one