hello there

i had a strange day yesterday

strange but often lovely weekend too

today i feel very bad

GOD fuck you google i don't want to give you my phone number!

jeeeeeeeeez

google, if you were a person

not only would you be insufferably nosy

but you would realize that my phone number is all over the internet

and would stop bugging me for it

ugh

yesterday i decided two things

i decided 1) march is going to be a month of ACTION

stefan supported this decision by giving me a slogan for my month of ACTION

"march into action, dave!"

yes!

ACTION!

i spent most of the day thinking up ideas and not working at all

and thinking of things i want to do and how deep into them i could get

ideas that started as simple things but just started branching out into these really wide concepts

not even like bullshitty high concept stuff

totally natural ideas but just little things that had endless potential

and i ate tacos and they were pretty good

(but no beans in them?? what the hell)

all day i was stuck at work thinking about how i could march into ACTION

i went home eventually too tired to even remember that slogan

i lay on my bed and looked at things and tried to stir up that same passion for ACTION

but everything seemed stupid

i made risotto but i overcooked it and added too many spices

why wouldn't a spice jar have a lid with holes in it?????

it makes no sense

every time i use our italian seasoning i put too much in

because i always forget there's no lid

whoa

pud upside down is pnd

sorry

distracted

anyways

last night i also decided 2) that march is probably going to be the same as every month

it just started out really well

and now is going to probably turn to shit

i just started getting all these "big dreams" but

i just think no matter what i do

hm

i don't know how to quite say what i mean here

ok

a story

every time i record something

i have a sound in mind

and then what actually gets recorded

is invariably very different

is it better?

is it worse?

sometimes it's both

but there is consistently a distance between the idea and the outcome

sometimes more lengthy than others

lengthy?

i'm goin with it

am i on a roll here?

am i making sense?

that last little bit sounded really profound

i'm tired of being so dumb and dave-y

i don't want to keep living this stupid life

this has been an all too typical dave down-date