hello

weird day yesterday

weird year

i remember in january

talking with people and telling them that this was the first time

i've ever actually looked forward to the new year

i feel like a lot of people agreed with me

because 2011 was such shit

but it's turning out that 2012 has not offered the lightning fast recovery economists hoped for

(been watching too much of this election bullshit this week)

(which is especially weird because i definitely don't give a shit about politics any more)

last night was surprisingly cold

and sometimes if i get really stoned i forget about things like weather

and last night i got really stoned

and didn't realize how cold i was

until i just started shaking

i just googled uncontrollable shaking right now

and yahoo answers seems to think it was probably a panic attack

either that or hypoglycemia

which is probably spelled wrong but who cares

mis-spelling medical terms doesn't bother me in the slightest

anyways

i grabbed some blankets and what not but couldn't really warm up

so i just went to bed

i thought about dying, as though maybe it was something i could will myself into

and then i had a dream where two of my teeth turned inexplicably green

there is sound in my head, always

it's been there all my life

but lately it's so much louder and more beautiful and more difficult to ignore

sometimes i just stare at nothing and listen to it

maybe somehow i can just dissolve into it

so i'll just be a realized and perfectly tuned or perfectly atonal version of sound

that only the insane can hear

...

this has been a confusing dave update