hi there

how are you?

whatever

what a dull weekend

i should stop thinking things like

"oh i just want to be lazy this weekend"

i did nothing this weekend

rewatched a season of the wire

and started watching treme

which is great, of course

played a bunch of music on sunday

not out in public obviously

stupid "guy who doesn't know what an ac outlet" is

oh well

i got it confused when i was calling around trying to find one too

people just say ac adapter too much, you get used to hearing it

i had a thought this weekend

where i was trying to identify one question to which you can reduce any serious disagreements

disagreements is kind of the wrong word

more like ideological conflicts?

ideological disagreements?

ideological farts.

that'll do

christ who cares

anyways

the question is impossible, of course

my answer though was pattern/chaos

at the time i was thinking that every ideological belief you hold is directly related to whether or not you believe life is governed by any sort of a pattern

no matter who small or seemingly insignificant

or if you're a person who believes life is governed by no patterns whatsoever and is more random and less static

i always thought i belonged in that latter category because i'm an atheist who doesn't really believe anything is special/sacred/whatever

but lately i've been thinking about how,

if life is in fact random and governed by nothing,

then things like a god or an afterlife or whatever the fuck don't really seem that absurd

i mean you'd think in a nihilist's world

things would just start disappearing or turning to stone or flying away or whatever

anyways

i feel like i've talked about this before

i kind of decided this weekend that i can't really commit to either option

i don't believe that life is 100% guided by any sort of pattern

i don't believe that life is 100% chaotic

sorry, this is getting weighty and boring

and now i've added statistics to the mix too so get ready for the THUNDER

ha ha

i sort of granted myself a "faith" option

it's kind of a cop out

it's where i decide that it doesn't matter what the fuck i think

because i'm going to be wrong anyways

and i choose to believe that the world is a mix of patterns vs chaos

maybe with a 60/40 balance

in either direction i guess

i'm just making this up anyways

anyways

this probably doesn't make much sense

or at least not as much sense as it made the other night

when i was really high and worried about kima from the wire

sigh

the game is rigged

this has been the dave update