hello

today seems hard

i haven't woken up this tired in awhile

which is a little funny

because last night i had to force myself to go to bed

and after not being able to sleep for awhile

i almost got back out of bed because i said to myself

"fuck it, clearly i'm not done with today and who cares about tomorrow"

"gonna be tired either way"

but i stayed in bed and went to sleep

eventually

and then woke up today feeling pretty shitty

i REALLY don't have much to do today

i mean there's always stuff i CAN do but i REALLY don't want to do a thing today

i have a drs appt at 1:30

i don't know why i always insist on writing drs appt

doctor's appointment

that's not that hard to type

but i like the way drs appt looks

looks like that's how it was written in my datebook

(not that i have a datebook)

(i got one once and was really into it)

(for about 2 weeks)

(OOPS!)

i had some deep thoughts last night

by jack handey

not really

but i thought about a few things in my life

that are causing me conflict

and last night i TOTALLY KNEW how to solve all of them

but today i'm not so sure

quitting my job was definitely part of it

but i don't really know if i can quit

i need $$$$$

bleh

enough of this

got work to pretend to do

got a drs appt at 1:30

see you jerks later

this has been the dave update