ok

i just wrote one of these but i have nothing to do at work until our computers get back up

i don't understand what i've been doing wrong

but i can't get happy about anything right now

i had practice last night and i didn't care

oh also i had practice yesterday but i didn't care

last night we watched youtube videos of big band performances

and then i saw this cool video of some group "poeme electronique"

which i guess i'll listen to now

because what else am i going to do

i don't know what to do

young davers

i don't believe that i'm capable of anything

i mean

the only reason i have a job is because we're absurdly understaffed

and my boss knows it'll be more of a pain to hire one or maybe two people to replace me

plus he'll have to pay unemployment

but i can't do this job at all any more, can't handle it

no one here really gives a shit about me anyways

i've spent like 3 or 4 years with these people and i think that's long enough for all of them to have "figured me out" ha ha

ha ha ha ha

that's where most people make friends you know

i read that somewhere

so it's probably true

why am i fucking writing this right now?

fuck this fuck this

sorry young davers

this has been an unnecessary and worthless bonus dave update