hello

it's dave

how are you?

i'll just sit here and wait for a response to that

i recorded a song a while ago

maybe as long as two years?

not sure

but i sent it to three different people

and explicitly asked them for their thoughts on it

on like, a particular part

because i wanted to re-record it

since the vocals were really bad

but i wasn't sure if it was too long or even worth trying to shine up

and no one responded to me

and it wasn't like, oh hey we haven't talked in like a million years

but here's this song i recorded

do you have any notes for me?

thanks!  see ya in a million years or probably never

no

it was like

people i talk to regularly

i remember one person in particular

i sent them the link over gchat

and said my piece

of "hey can you please listen to this and let me know if it's too long?"

and she straight up IGNORED me

changed the subject and didn't even acknowledge my request

i thought that was really fucked up

but the reason i bring it up is because it was fucked up

yes

but also completely expected

i don't understand why i'm such an ignorable person

i made a decision awhile ago

it's kind of a stupid one but i stand by it

any time someone asks me for something that i don't have or don't want to part with

I RESPOND TO THEM

usually with "nope"

WOW WHAT A FUCKING LIFE CHANGING IDEA

ACKNOWLEDGING THAT OTHER PEOPLE EXIST

it's my personal opinion

that those homeless people on the street

who are arguing with their shoes

and doing other strange things

aren't just ON DRUGS or PLAIN OL CRAZY or whatever

but if you keep getting ignored

if people walk by you and can't even look at you

let alone respond to your question

you begin to wonder if you are real

if you still exist

or if you've died and maybe no one has bothered to tell you

or end your life on this planet

i don't think plain ol' crazy exists

i also don't think evil exists

i'm sure this comes off as some whiny wide-eyed liberal rant

some prick with a beanie and a backpack and a "bushit" t-shirt

talking about how the MUNI fare increase is like total fascism maaaaaaaan

it's like we're in nazi fuckin germany

this is how it starts

i hope i don't come off like that

i don't think i'm blowing anyone's mind right now

what does it even matter anyways?

i'm just talking to myself

arguing with my shoes

my shoes actually could use a good talking to

STOP BEING SO SMELLY

this has been a kind of annoying dave update