hi there

i had all these deep thoughts last night while i was cooking

but nothing coming to mind right now

i'm too tired today

i actually just cancelled the public practice scheduled for tonight

because i just hadn't put any effort into it yet

and it just seemed,

i don't know

like a wrong time i guess?

i just thought about it and was like

well

these are usually fun for me

but i really think staying in tonight sounds like more fun

just bein' honest

i started to write "so much on my mind right now"

but then i realized i had written "nothing coming to mind right now" earlier

like, "technically" the sentence prior to this one

not that these really count as sentences but i'm just trying to make it sound like a very small gap

anyways

what i MEAN

i suppose

is that because i've been thinking about a whole buncha junk

i don't really have anything that i'd like to share

maybe this is what people mean when they talk about overthinking things

like

if you think about something too much

you exhaust your ability to deal with it

not like deal with it like actually do something about it

but deal with it like hear about it

like when that bus tipped onto me and nearly crushed me

i spent 3 hours thinking to myself

"how am i gonna get out of THIS one?"

but then after thinking about it for awhile i was like

"fuck this, i'm sick of thinking about this stupid bus"

so i just lifted it off of me and walked it off

i DEALT with it because i couldn't DEAL with it any more

should i wait for a moment for you to process that story?

pretty mind-blowing, don't i know it

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ok

so if you exhaust your ability to "deal" with something

then you only really have one viewpoint

because instead of bouncing thoughts off other people

your one thought keeps racing around your head

like a superball ricocheting in a very small room

(that thing's gonna take an eye out bee tea dubs)

and then you get sick of the stupid superball and just "lift the bus"

so to speak

but sometimes there's a better way

like, i don't know, maybe i should have driven the bus off me or something

this metaphor is losing steam

but what i mean is that when you overthink things

you close yourself off to outside input

or i mean fuck maybe just I do that

maybe this ain't YP but MP

i never understood that stupid phrase

who the fuck says "sounds like that's YP and not MP"

sounds so dumb

oh!

i watched dazed and confused last night for the first time in awhilllllllllle

shit is soooooo goooooooood

ok

now i'm distracted and thinking about dazed and confused

now i'm gonna go smoke a cigarette

ok

check ya later

this has been the dave update