hello

i'm so tired today

i did nothing last night

but cleaned a little

i fucking HATE moving

i'm so bad at it

and then i listened to records

and went to bed really early

before bed i decided to put a warm washcloth over my eyes and listen to the colbert report

after awhile i took the washcloth off and i couldn't really see anything

everything was blurry

i thought maybe my eyes were just out of focus so i grabbed a book

and stared at the text for awhile until i could read it

but it didn't really help too much

so i just went to sleep

when i woke up today i could see fine

but i woke up stupid late today

and got to work at 10:30

i'm shooting for a 9 am arrival lately

oops

tomorrow my friends are playing the independent

beforehand i'm going to go to some art exhibit about living alone

i'm hoping that it will be reassuring

i know i dwell on this and i'm not trying to continue that trend

sometimes it helps though to type this kind of stuff or say it out loud

it's not really "fake it til you make it"

more like "this is confusing and new so i'm going to keep explaining it"

i mean

being alone is hardly new for me

ugh

i'm not talking about this any more

there's nothing new to discuss

i'm looking forward to living with pets

especially ion because WE HAVE A BOND

i love ion

i love oso too

i have trouble remembering the other cat's name but it's because i never see it

sigh

life is no kind

and judgment day is this saturday

bring it on i guess

i don't want to talk anymore today

this has been the dave update